Ever since I was just a kid, I've always looked for a way to take care of my family. I started handling responsibilities of an adult at a young age. My mom spoke little English, while my dad was ill with Schizophrenia. My brother did his own thing, which left me to do just about everything the man of the house was supposed to do. Not very ideal for a 10 year old boy, but I had to do it.

The world is a great place. Being large and busy, it never lets on what's inside until you look...closer and closer and closer. Much like the world, we are all large and busy, until someone can look within us and see more. What interest does one have to look? I have no idea what draws us to each other, but to analyze the reason is to simply make excuses. When eyes are closed and one is left to simple feeling and emotion, that which draws us becomes as clear as the world.

I suppose life is best spent reevaluating one's self through all of the hard times and the decisions that were made. I tend to re read emails just for this purpose. I see my self-development as the emails get older and older. Most of the time, I wish I handled things differently, and of course, if I could, I would.

There are few traditions that still remain from our ancestors. I am a big fan of those traditions. It's a form of respect and admiration for what has brought us to where we are now.

I think back to the time when I was most in touch with such traditions. When I was younger, we celebrated Christmas every year at one of my cousin's houses. At midnight, we'd exchange gifts and that's the way it was. Mardi Gras was celebrated in front of the Ecuador Sporting Club on Homestead & Vets. And, Toney and I caught as many beads as possible to fund our Nintendo game collection building.

B97 has been having this Cutest Baby Contest going on since January, and my little cousin, Kennen Santos, is in the top 50! It started out as 500 babies, and she made it thus far.

The actual program is a PHP script that has simple JavaScript code that prevents you from going back on your browser history to resubmit the same vote.

However, if you disable JavaScript or use Google Chrome, you can hit back and re-vote…no problem!

I know I used the word in the sense of moving away, but words, although mean a standard definition, can bring feelings of other similar meanings. Relocation to me means exactly what it means here: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/relocation ... to move or establish in a new place.

Right now, I am at a turning point. In a month, Ashlee and I will have to renew our ... or her lease here at Windsong for another year at $900/mo. 2 bedrooms, 1250sqft, beautiful balcony and cathedral ceilings, 46" samsung mounted on the wall above the fireplace...why would I want to?

"The course of true love never did run smooth"

Just about anything goes in here that isn't on or near a bathroom :D!

Talking seems to be the best therapy for me so far. I have pretty decent days, but nights and mornings are the toughest. I guess that's because during the day I can occupy myself with work and the people I interact with. I take advantage of any ear that will hear my story, although the level of personal information is equivalent to how personal I am with that ear. The best ear so far is Ashlee's. And, I know for a fact that I am not supposed to be communicating with the one I am to stay away from. But, she knows me the best, she knows us the best, and she knows her the best. There is no better listener. However, she can't give me advice if she doesn't even dig deep to think of her side of the scenario as well. And she shouldn't...now is her time to heal and to take a break from the struggles within. This is our opportunity to do some work on ourselves.

Seems like you never really knew me
seems like you never understood me
seems like you never really knew how to feel
but electricity it drew you near to me
what you needed was to be rid of me

there were times you really made me smile